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My pretty little masochist
Never learned the method of duck & run.
She stays where she is
Getting battered to pieces,
Hiding her scars & insisting it's fun.

My pretty little masochist
Won't let me protect her
From my self destructive ways.
She prefers to stay and fight for the mess of me.
Stubborn to the point
Of being irresistibly adorable,
She swears she's strong & not so easily broken
But we both worry when we see
The reflected pain of my own bad decisions,
Staring back at me.

My pretty little masochist
Is never ending patience & a world of understanding
As my broken heart orbits around her.
I pull her emotions along with mine
Like the moon pulls the tide
But she never complains
Of the pain that splashes on to her from me.

My pretty little masochist
Is dragon's logic & dragon's strength
Always protecting others fiercely.
But she told me once the secret
Of her dragon scales
Is construction paper & glitter glue
& never letting anyone close enough to notice
Her disguise,
Her lies,
No one except for me.
Because I am safe in her secret,
I can't hold her when she threatens to break,
I'm a cracked vase that her dragon tears would leak through
So she must preserve her glamour
To keep the rest of us together.

My pretty little masochist
Is typically
Laughter & smiles & song.
She holds me tight when she promises
This time we'll get it right
Though my history always got it wrong.

My pretty little masochist
Is butterfly wings against my skin,
Is the good to balance out my sin,
Is the love I always wanted but never believed I could win.
I won't be so dull as to post a definition of masochism here.

Dragon's tears are said to do many things, one is cure all illness. One is cure all sadness. If only I were a dragon and he were a whole vase.

The scary thing about getting all these new watchers is that I'm terrified of disappointing them now.

04.17.10
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Psychedelic-Reunion Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2010
It was dark, it was sexy, it was serious, it was emotional, and it has so much focus. I like it. Interesting to me is how you came upon to write such a uncommon piece. Many things are best to leave unexplained.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2010  Student Writer
I enjoy talking about my work. I'm more than happy to answer any questions you have. I'm not even really sure how I came up with this. A lot of it is very personal and I just came up with analogies to match certain situations in my life. You're description of the poem sounds a lot like the relationship it was based on. So I guess I got it right. lol

Thank you so much for the comment. I really love when people leave comments for me. It means a lot.
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Psychedelic-Reunion Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2010
I keep reading this, and I must say it's a very good work to play along a very good arcade fire song I listen to daily. I would like to have known how to came up with this..I would like to know so many things, but little by little I guess we shall discover one another.


Comments are lovely. Compliments are heavenly.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2010  Student Writer
Oh, what Arcade Fire song where you listening to?
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Psychedelic-Reunion Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2010
My Body is a cage. Very good song. I don't understand why it feels so right with your work.
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Life-ls-Beautiful Featured By Owner May 14, 2010
dont stres, you have never disapointed me yet and i've been reading your work for years :) its all been amazing, honest.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner May 14, 2010  Student Writer
Thanks! I kinda got over the stress. I don't actually write for other people. I'm really glad you like it though. :D
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Life-ls-Beautiful Featured By Owner May 15, 2010
oh yeh of course you dont :) but we benefit nonetheless haha :P
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reddaverocker Featured By Owner May 12, 2010
Sooooo many pretty images here. I'm at a loss.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner May 12, 2010  Student Writer
Thank you so much! Some days I guess I imagine I'm a pretty person. lol :D
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anieke Featured By Owner May 7, 2010
Thumbs up :)
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner May 8, 2010  Student Writer
Thanks. =)
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x-xlost-and-alonex-x Featured By Owner May 4, 2010  Student Traditional Artist
wow you have some amazing piece! where you find the inspiration from !! it;s wow <3! ,

im not great with comments but i have to say your works are amazing and keep me in !

great work <3!!!
xx
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner May 4, 2010  Student Writer
Thank you so much. Unfortunately a lot of this (here read all of this) is from personal experience. It kinda sucks but at least I get some good pieces out of it. lol

Thank you so much. I'm so glad you liked it.
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x-xlost-and-alonex-x Featured By Owner May 5, 2010  Student Traditional Artist
ouch =/ , i was unsure when i read (i read 'all is fair' before so i think i got the descriptions a little mixed up in my head) but i thought i had experienced similar feelings at some point , gosh !! you make it seem very real !! ,

not a problem =D!
xx
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner May 5, 2010  Student Writer
Yeah, a lot of my stuff seems to have very similar themes these days. I get the pieces confused, I imagine it must be a pain for the people reading them. lol
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x-xlost-and-alonex-x Featured By Owner May 11, 2010  Student Traditional Artist
hey it;s not it's great reading all of your work!!
xx
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner May 11, 2010  Student Writer
Awww thanks so much!
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x-xlost-and-alonex-x Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2010  Student Traditional Artist
Not a problem =3 <3
xx
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Semantic Featured By Owner May 3, 2010
Overall, I enjoyed the imagery and subject matter of the piece. But, I had a little trouble really enjoying it, because the flow of the piece seemed very fractured due to the structure of the stanzas.

I'm curious about why you broke up the lines in each stanza the way you chose to... for example:
My pretty little masochist
Never learned
The method of duck & run.


That was one complete thought broken into 3 lines. Usually this is done in order to accentuate certain components of a complete thought... but here, it makes such a nice sentence feel disjointed because of the natural pause given to each break when reading.

My little masochist(stop)
Never learned(stop)
The method of duck & run(stop)

This is a pattern that you continue throughout the entire piece and on many of the breaks you use commas as well to seemingly emphasize the pause.

So, maybe I'm missing the point of the structure used... could you help me out with that?
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner May 3, 2010  Student Writer
There probably was no reason. I had a lot of problems deciding on how to break up the lines. It probably does seems choppy. I'll look over it again and see if I can make it make more flow better. I probably had a reason at the time I wrote it, something along the lines of my own f-ed up and choppy way of thinking. lol
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Semantic Featured By Owner May 3, 2010
Sounds good. I'd like to check it out again when you get the chance to work it over. If you remember, maybe drop me a note when you finish editing ;)
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner May 4, 2010  Student Writer
I'll definitely remember to do that. =)
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panKakes91 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2010
I ADORE the repetition of My pretty little masochist. It adds so much in terms of getting into the speaker's head. And as for the structure, it's very fluid and connects us with thought patterns that are organic and not something thought out and rehearsed. This is raw, this is real, and it's tragically beautiful. It highlights the pros and cons so perfectly and evenly you get a real feel for how things are. :) Amazing.

How are things going with this situation? Any better?
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2010  Student Writer
Oh much better. That's true I haven't talked to you in awhile. Yeah, we're talking again and we've sorted out most of the problems. Not to sound terrible but like I said, he can't follow through but his reasoning, once we talked, was pretty much everything I had already said it was.

I'm really glad you liked this. :D
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Ice-Blade Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2010
This is fantastic.

Dont write for your watchers but write for yourself.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2010  Student Writer
lol. I would never write for my watchers. I just feel a lot of pressure to please. :D But never to change.
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KitsuneShoujoAi Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2010
You never disappoint me.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2010  Student Writer
Awww thank you!
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JaredPLNormand Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2010
Wow! A poem void of coffee references?! You're turning a new coco leaf? Did you consider adding structure to this one? You seemed to have something going in the first stanza but I was mistaken in noticing "run" and "fun" as a small rhyme scheme. Given the refrain, an appropriately designed and well executed rhyme scheme and meter will make this you're own masterpiece.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2010  Student Writer
There isn't a coffee reference! No, I think someone hacked my account and put up their poetry under my name!

Haha. As if I have patience for a rhyme scheme. I haven't written something that rhymed in… ever? I lie, I use to. Parts of it rhymed, does that count? And did you just refer to something I wrote as a master piece? Geesh, we're all being uncharacteristic tonight aren't we?
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JaredPLNormand Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2010
You're improving well, love. Get over it!
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2010  Student Writer
I'm over it. I'm simply surprised.
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lordlossxz Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2010
haha. dont be scared. You have people who "watch" you because they like what you write. So just keep writing for yourself and in your own personal way the way you always have and you wont disappoint anyone bc the only one who matters here is yourself. You dont write for your "fans" and they should know that. You write for yourself and if you happen to acquire "watchers" that like that, then thats great. But its not them you have to disappoint and the moment you start feeling the need to write for anyone other than yourself, then you will lose touch with how you write and THEN you will disappoint me at least.

To sum up, don't worry. you have nothing to worry about :P
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2010  Student Writer
I will never write for anyone else. I just feel the pressure more. lol No, not really. Most of them don't comment anyway so I don't care what they think because they must not care enough to share anyway.
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lordlossxz Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2010
:P
I care though! ^^
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2010  Student Writer
I know this! :hug:
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2010  Student Writer
I know this! :hug:
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AdriaFaye Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Beautiful, yet chilling. Romantic, yet dark. I love it!
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2010  Student Writer
Thank you so much. It's not really so dark as it sounds on paper, though it has its moments for sure. But two masochists in a relationship is definitely an interesting thing to observe.
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anieke Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2010
Love it.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2010  Student Writer
Thank you so much.
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cyranosdemet Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2010
you know nomad, I'm not really convinced it is possible for someone to be an emotional masochist, not really... I mean, it seems a bit contradictory, really... kind of suspect the word is getting pushed into service because no one has ever worked out a better one for the thought...
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2010  Student Writer
You're probably right. I mean masochism is a feeling we get from doing something, an emotion we get from doing something… so… yeah… that's about as far as I can go with this right now. Which is probably a good thing, it's one in the morning and I'm not known for scintillating thought this late at night.
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cyranosdemet Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2010
g'night nomad... we'll discuss pain and pleasure and the politics of poo-bear's campaign to rule the three acre wood some other time... sweet dreams.
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AnUrbanNomad Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2010  Student Writer
Sweet dreams to you too!
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